Have you ever been through a hard time and held onto certain quotes or songs or scriptures?

I feel like the past few weeks have left me winded and so in order to catch my breath and find my way through I have been playing certain songs on repeat. Music has a way of making everything feel ok, maybe its the combination of beautiful melody and lyrics laced with truth that has that effect, I am not quite sure. But anyway. It helps. It lifts. It eases. Worship songs, for me specifically, shift the focus off me and help me to see a bigger picture. There is something wonderfully mysterious about the power of surrender in worship. Of what it does to the heart. It moves God’s hands and sets the supernatural in motion. It heals and raises spirits. It really is the only thing I turn to when I just don’t know what else to do.

This song is one of my favourites. It’s called EDGE OF HEAVEN by River Valley Worship. I had never heard of them until a few days before we ended up in hospital and well I think God gave this to me as a perfectly timed gift because He knew I would need these words and melodies to help me lift my head and fix my gaze to heaven.

The whole song is awesome but there is something profound about the way the verses are framed with the notion of “For now”.

FOR NOW. For this moment. For the time being. For a short while. For now. The pain of this earth, the trials and storms, the unexplainable and the unthinkable is for now. It’s not for later. It’s not for heaven. It’s not forever. It is just for now. This song gives me hope because I could look at my every sick child and know that this was just for now. It would end. The idea of “for now” reminds me of the temporal nature of our lives and that our hope really does lie in what is eternal. And when we are in the middle of the mud it’s hard to see the eternal but its really every bit of hope that we have. The best is yet to come is true of this life but oh so true of what lies ahead in heaven. And for now as I wait and as I continue on and as we face whatever we must face throughout this life we can access heaven here on earth through Jesus Christ. It may only be in part but it is heaven none the less.

I’m not sure where you are at but maybe, just maybe, this song could instill a hope and courage in you for this moment. This pain you may be experiencing, the pain I have experienced is not the end of the story. There is a victorious end. There is a magnificent crescendo, it is coming. And as we wait in anticipation for Jesus to come and wrap this all up we can live lives that simultaneously are full of joy and yet full of pain. This is not our home- heaven is our home and we have much to look forward to.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
2 Corinthians 4:16-18

Do not lose heart. This is not the end. Let’s fix our eyes (focus, meditate on, concentrate our attention, look towards, dwell on and remind ourselves consistently) that this earth; as lovely as it can be and as hard as it often is, is not our home. Our home is heaven. A new place. A place free from tragedy, suffering and grief. A place where racism, sexism and classism will be no more. Where harmony and peace will reign and where we can live truly and finally free.